my past weeks before i leave on the 20th has been filled with very much loves from baby himself, and also friends who tag along to random things i do or we do. i rarely take much photos unless our activity was really "go to a pretty place and snap pictures". =)
but i am feeling pretty emotional tonight. the thought of leaving this country, leaving the place that i have never left before, to somewhere i have no knowledge of except through Google, makes me feel sad. i feel gloomy, not sad. sad isnt the word. ive never thought i have to be independent so fast at this stage of my life, i still want my parents to guide me through, and keep nagging when i am sleeping at such wrong hours when i am supposed to be studying.
they have given me probably more than i can ask for and being blessed to be sent overseas, i truly cannot thank them more.
and whats im also affected about is leaving baby. no more bb to speak chinese for me when i dont understand, no more going out randomly and thinking of what to do by the roadside, no more "dont worry's im here", no more hugs when i feel sad, and so many more.
but what he said to me, ill remember. these years we are apart is nothing compared to the lifetime we are going to spend together. =) see how he can make my day? i know he has been trying hard to understand me more, doing things i like more than me doing things he like more. im sorry baby, if youre reading this.
and friends, best friends, girl friends, love hate friendships, who i am leaving behind, where is all the drama and scandals going to come from! ill miss this country for its people, all the people ive known in a lifetime, and all the people who made me who i am today.
gosh, please give me strength to be so far away from home.
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