it will never be the same

emo post. closecloseclose

19 April 2010

it wasnt long enough that i have hurt my finger, yes the middle one. where it hurts so much, yes. it will never be the same, as in yes, it wont be as strong, as normal as it was before. i keep worrying about it you know. will it really heal like really really in the freaking short time? i cant grab something properly, and i cant even be grabbed -.-

and i dislike skating, ever since the beginning. its not my thing, going on one metal sliding across in a circle. burdening to have me around, that's what i hate. you wont see me anywhere near the skating ring again, probably just watching, not sliding in there. never.

its just like, playing badminton, or swimming. some people hates it, well i dont know why but they certainly do have some sort of trauma or some sort of history behind it. tell me to go paragliding i will go paragliding. not skating. i dislike skating.

i don't have issues with skating, i just dont like. and dont like means dont like lah.

another thing that gives it a plus point is i have blue blacks on my left ass right now. and i made adeline knock her head real hard. thank god shes alright. :(

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hey you, hello. seems like youre closing me out of your life, im probably less important right now than i am before, less shiny than i was before. but, i am going to get through this, im going to dig a hole to the other world so that i can meet new people and leave you behind too. its so fineee with me. probably you feel much more better now, much more important in this whole big society, i'd wish you luck.

and ps; i definitely worth more than that.

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what i dislike even more is the inconsistency of your words. keep it, or else just dont mention it.

i have a feeling its going to be a long week.

And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm crying inside
And nobody knows it but me

nobody knows it but me - babyface