why isnt everything enough

I want i want i want. 

Sometimes i feel guilty of being so greedy, wanting the most out of everything i do. I want people to be happy of what i did for them, i want people to appreciate what i am trying to do, i want people to thank me for my efforts, i want things that i know, is impossible for me to get. Yet i still long for the impossible. (currently i long for Mr.x to come to Moscow and sing me a Taylor Swift song and please, if u do come, bring me some maggi goreng or ccf.)

Well, its nothing bad longing something so badly that you can actually get all so emotional when you get really disappointed but, me thinks its okay. Adds spice to your boring life. Talking about boring, life here, is getting pretty boring. Same old boring routine everyday. I wished there was more drama than cook eat sleep study. hmms.

Its so bored till when dinner time, all my study mates crack medical anatomical jokes -.-'' u know, bones and stuff. 

Reminds me of all those 5 Amiga times.. where we were believed to be eating calculators..due to certain circumstances. Yao yun even wrote some short description of how calculators actually tastes like. o.O

Anyways, i asked why isnt everything enough because sometimes, when i already got what i actually wanted, i want more, like more alot more. I forget how to appreciate things that i already have and i try to get more than what i already have just because i dont feel appreciated, i dont feel the feeling of belonging. Worse, i dont feel like i matter at all.

Its so frustrating especially because you know what is going on and yet your alter ego still wanna go and jump off than cliff, taking the risk. Dear other yy, please stoppppppp. 

Just be satisfied and let things go flow mo lo to yo? :D

no wonder ive been saying LOL so much. live, love, laugh :)